I am an overachiever.
In my mind, body, and soul.
I am always striving to do more, see more, and be more regardless of the other activities on my plate. I cannot help it. I want to do everything. All of the time. As I am slowly beginning to feel the signs of burn-out quickly approaching, I am realizing that some activities need to be eliminated. I have stopped using Weight Watchers and My Fitness Pal for the moment being. I have stopped worrying obsessively about my weight and excercising. I have allowed myself to have a little bit of fun and go out more BUT I still feel lost sometimes.
What will reliving myself from the burden of tracking my calorie intake do for me? Am I still losing weight? No. Do I want to lose weight? Obviously yes. Have I been able to stick to something for the long term that will actually help me see some real results? Off and on, but I know I probably cheat. Right now I am feeling emotionally and physically drained. I have been listening to a lot of health related podcasts lately to provide myself with information on what I need to do to feel better. I am trying to allow myself to "be free" and "relax" but sometimes I feel like I am just avoiding the issue. Oprah always says that you have to be ready to lose weight in order to be successful. And this probably goes for a lot of other topics as well.
So am I ready?
I am not sure. But I know that I want to be. I do know that I need to be okay with not being an overachiever though. That only provides me with a heavier load to carry everyday and more guilt for not doing more. I need to allow myself to feel that it is okay to just do the minimum sometimes.