Sunday, June 26, 2011
I am too open.
I am one of those people who wears their heart on their sleeve. Even though I have gotten burned for it before, I can't help it. I love meeting new people and making new friends, but I always feel like I am giving too much of myself in the beginning. I enjoy being honest and speaking the truth about how I am feeling and what I like and dislike.
A part of me feels that this is a positive flaw because it takes a lot for some people to be forward and open to meeting people right away. Conversely, this can be negative because not everyone needs to know me on a personal level.
I even feel that in romantic relationships that I state how I feel too often. (Men out there are probably saying "HELLO! That is what we want! We are sick of trying to figure ya'll out!!") But I feel that I need to try holding back some. Make him learn more about me. Not that men treat me poorly, but I would like for men (my man in particular) to figure out my emotions on his own from time to time. AND then make/do the necessary things after making his own (correct) observations. Asking too much, perhaps?
This is something that I have always wanted to change about myself, but I always end up striking a new conversation and meeting someone who is totally amazing and opening up right away. Today on Keeping Up With The Kardashians Khloe told Kim that she admires how she has the vulnerability to love so hard ever time she loves, and I can relate to that. I generally believe that everyone is a "good person" until they have proven to me that they are not. Maybe I need to try to adopt the guilty until proven innocent policy?
at 6:24 PM